The Prodrome

My head was ramping up as my husband noticed before I did as per….

‘You ok?’

‘Ya why?’ I reply

He gives me the half smile as my ass is sliding down the couch and my face is similarly sloping on the right side.

( also a sign of a migraine)

‘I have headache face do I?’

He nods ‘can I get you anything?’

I shake my head and wonder how he is not sick of this merrygoround and does he want off?

I know I do.

He asks me a question pertaining to the conversation that was happening moments before and all I remember is the volume ( which in my head only read a disturbingly high decibel level) and no information-penetrated.

It is just like the Peanuts cartoon when the adults are talking, except REAL LOUD. Wah wah wah

I genuinely do not remember one bit of the conversation as my sensitivity to sound is usually one of my first symptoms of an attack. I just see mouths moving and wonder why everyone is being so damn annoying.

My husband is literally the migraine whisperer.

He just knows even before I think I do.

Some people have auras ( vision changes) I have Joe.

The experts call this the Prodrome , the before to the migraine.

Frankly it’s like Satan opening the door and yelling ‘come on in’.

How did I chase my sanity today?

Today I have decided to paint. I will paint until I can’t.

That is how Chronic Sanity takes its form.

I feel the simmering pressure of the Migraine in my face and a little nauseous. The painting is calming for me and I enjoy the peace and quiet. Sometimes hammering to my face doesn’t start for a while and I can get almost a whole piece done. Today I got most of it complete. The pressure continues to build until I am unable

t o retain a thought. Other than I hope I pass out right here or or my face just blows up.

None of the above.

The Pre Abortive treatments /medications to help stave off a migraine when we feel one of the thousands of symptoms are many.

I haven’t yet found one that works for me but I will

Always try the new one coming up .

Also…. if I ever find the person who came

Up with ‘take 7 almonds and an Advil’

Thanks Tips, pretty sure you saved mankind with that one.

I think a separate blog entry will just

be dedicated to all the well meaning, dumb ass, half baked, old wive tales no one ever wanted to know to cure migraine.

Chronic Pain can be the absence of a life lived well. Chronic Sanity means a life lived to the fullest for me.

Each piece of art I make has a piece of Migraine in it. Just like when I see a picture of me, I remember the Migraine that day and am grateful I got a piece of life.

It’s not the worst thing I could have but it sure ain’t the best !

My chronic pain is not going to keep me from being chronically sane